“When a man’s ways please the Lord, He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.” Proverbs 16:7
It is often said that there is only one you in the world so be an original. Sure, you may not be someone’s cup of tea but as long as you are okay with yourself and with God, just keep moving forward. Now, I will be the first to admit I can be hard to handle at times(everybody just isn’t quite ready). The older I get(and the more therapy I attend), the more I can accept that that is just how it is.
The only people I have ever tried to please were my family and teachers. The older I get I just realize this is who I am and God is molding me into who I am supposed to be. So, even though I try to be the number one people pleaser, I still have some really unique ideas and attitudes that are all my own. Like this one time when I raised my hand and told my professor I hated the class(hardest B I ever got), sometimes I just learn lessons my own way. I am ok with that and when people can see where I am going with an idea, they usually support me.
It is often said that the lessons that we have not learned yet will be faced again and again until we learn them. I so believe this. It has happened to me countless times. I am still trying to learn the relationship lesson. Sometimes I think that once I have learned a lesson that everyone else wants to learn it too. Nope, our lessons are our lessons to learn and people will only ask when they are ready. I don’t know everything, but in my head I think I do. So when I hear people say things in a know it all manner I get mad at them when in reality its just a big gong that says I need to quit while I am ahead.
Today I ran and worshipped with a loud voice. It was awesome. I went through so many different emotions on that long run. I was so thankful that the only people nearby were people who know me. Worship music always takes me to the core of myself and that is where I know I need more of the Lord.
I also thought it made a good mini substitute since I didn’t have the opportunity to go to the single’s conference(which I emailed about and asked about a ride, but boy it is something about people not understanding that not everyone in the world has a car that makes brain cells explode).I literally emailed the coordinator back and said “So you really didn’t read my email”. I make due with what I have and most of my friends usually understand my situation or have extreme grace and pity on me. So I figure that if I am somewhere it is because I was meant to be there.
Yesterday the Blogilates crew was encouraged to make a vision board(I am the queen of vision boards, I have four of them in my storage). So since I don’t have a place to hang one, I decided to make a vision book. It is so awesome. I love it so much. I think it is great because I can look at it at any time and take it anywhere. I’m still working on it.
So this weekend I will just be busy with schoolwork and finishing my vision book.
Here’s to being ourselves in the goodness of God.