Lord, thank-you for silent suffering that brings our hidden sins to light, and the harms of sin to naught, and that turns the hurts of sin to joy. We praise you for freely given costly grace! Amen.
I’m thanking Jesus for His suffering for me. I am always mindful of it. I just remember grace and mercy. When I focus on the sacrifice Jesus made for me, I can’t help but be humbled. Today I went to three meetings(one was an AA and Al-Anon mix, the second was Al-Anon, and the third was one of my favorite AA meetings). All of the meetings related to the third step and focusing on our relationship with God.
I saw the guy I was supposed to hang out with last week. He looked great. I gave him a few big hugs. He said that he wanted to work on things. I asked him how much recovery time he had. He’s still working on it, so I told him to see me when he has a year. Then I realized that I will be really busy by that time. So it is best to just leave things where they are.
A good friend told me to pray for God to show me what to do and how things will work out. I thought I was doing that but I can definitely pray harder. The third step prayer involves us asking for God’s will to be done in our lives and not our own. I do want God’s perfect will to be done in my life, because I know my life will be better off for it. I can only mess things up when I try to take control.
I downloaded a note app thing and out of five things I only managed to cross out one lol. I still can’t believe that I almost didn’t leave the house today because I thought it was too cold. That is what jackets are for. I listened a lot and learned a lot today. I am really proud of myself.
I am going to read some of my big book tonight before bed. I love how I see God and recovery in everything now. It’s so interesting how much greater life can be sober. A few people asked me how my talk went last night and I just said ok. I think I kept it short and sweet. It truly is amazing how God can work in my life when I let Him.
I talked to my friend and I think we got things worked out(we are praying for each other). I have to keep reminding myself that just because I don’t have something major to worry about doesn’t mean I have to find stuff to worry about. That’s not my job.
Thank you for praying for me. I’m praying for you too.
Father God, I come in the name of Jesus to speak life and health to my body. Life and death are in my tongue! I speak to my healthy red blood cells and I say live, multiply, replenish every cycle as God designed. I speak to my healthy white blood cells and white and red platelets and I say live, multiply, replenish. All will be in right proportion as God designed. In Jesus’ name and by the power of His blood, I speak to every abnormal red blood cell, every abnormal white blood cell, every red and white platelet that is abnormal: I command you to die! I command you to stop multiplying.I declare that God’s glory and His light causes you to shrivel up, die, and be flushed out of my body, never to return. By the Holy Spirit, I see disease leaving my mortal body! I see my body, my blood cells, my muscles, and my brain being rejuvenated. I have the mind and healthy body of Jesus Christ! Amen
3 John 2, Psalm 16:11,103:3, Isaiah 41:10-15, 53:5, Matthew 4:24, James 5:16, 2 Chronicles 20:15
This was a gift from a friend today :
In the name of Jesus, I decree from this moment forward, I see myself the way God sees me. I am highly favored of the Lord. I am crowned with glory and honor. I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. I am reigning as a Queen in life through Jesus Christ the Messiah.
In Jesus’ name, I declare by faith that I walk in divine favor. I have preferential treatment, supernatural increase, restoration, prominence, petitions granted, laws changed, policies and rules changed and battles won, which I do not have to fight, all because of the blessing and favor of God on my life.
In Jesus name, every morning when I arise, I will speak and expect divine favor to go before me and surround me as with a shield of goodwill and pleasures forevermore. Doors are now open for me that men have said are impossible to open. No obstacle can stop me, and no hindrances can delay me.
In Jesus’ name, I am honored by my Father, as I receive genuine favor that comes directly from God. I am special to Him. I am the object of His affection. I am the apple of His eye. I am blessed and highly favored of the Lord, in Jesus’ name.
A lot of times I view every problem that I have as major. Some days it seems like my expertise is making mountains out of molehills. When I focus so intently on a problem, it causes me to focus on God less. God is the source of my strength. I am not the source of my strength. I may have to keep repeating that to myself. When I have a problem and it seems like it is going to mountain status, I have to bring it to God. When I have a problem and it is at molehill status, I have to bring it to God. When I look at my problems from God’s point of view, things aren’t so bad. I can breathe, I can laugh, I can love. I can do all of these things freely without worry. I need to embrace those moments fully(I am going to work on that). I will always face some sort of problem but God will always be with me.
Shalom and Blessings
“Happy are those who hear the joyful call to worship, for they will walk in the light of your presence, LORD. ” Psalm 89:15(NLT)
When you wake up and feel the whole world bearing down on you, that is a day for you to fill up with God’s strength. When you wake up and feel like everything is going to be ok, that is a day for you to thank God for strength. The Bible says that the rain falls on the just and the unjust, so we cannot think that just because we are believers that everything is going to be perfect all of the time.
God gives us strength for every day of our journey. We just have to decide if we are going to accept it. I find that when I wake up with an attitude of acceptance. Or when I pray for an attitude of acceptance, I am on my way to a better day. God is in control and I just have the opportunity to live with His grace.
Shalom and Blessings
“Search for the LORD and for his strength; continually seek him.” Psalm 105:4(NLT)
Take a moment to think of all God has done for you. Have you ever written them down? Have you forgotten any? God changes us when we take time to focus on Him. Anything that takes our focus off of God can become a hindrance. Taking time to sit and pray with God is precious time that grows our faith. Taking time to read scripture and see how God has worked in the lives of others and how He can work in our lives is powerful.
When we are going through something difficult, we can remember the scripture that says “If God is for us, who can be against us?”. That means God is bigger than our problems and our enemies. That is probably one reason why we are told to pray for our enemies. When I take the time to pray for my enemies, that helps me remember that they are human too. The only sliver of downside that I find is when I start praying for my enemies, some of them start to pop up out of nowhere(like calling or texting me). That is annoying. So even though I haven’t figured out what that means, I continue to pray and delete those out of my phone(who are still in there for some reason).
Shalom and Blessings
“And as for me, thou upholdest me in mine integrity, and settest me before thy face for ever.” Psalm 41:12(KJV)
A lot of people have trouble with meditation due to monkey mind(when your mind can’t seem to sit still). Today God asks us to sit with Him quietly in meditation and prayer. If this sounds easier said than done, just strive for one minute. I know I say this a lot but we really do have to start somewhere. I think one minute is a good start.
Most of the time, my mind races due to fear and anxiety(deadlines, dates, worries). When I remember that God is with me through it all, I can begin to focus on one fear/worry at a time. When I take the time to be patient with myself and focus on what I am doing right, God helps me continue on.
Shalom and Blessings
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6(NIV)
So, I got a bit of a reality check today. Basically I like people who like me and I hate people who hate me. Yes, I know its not the best attitude to have. Even though I do pray for my enemies, I have to ask God to give me the strength to forgive them. How can I be mad at someone for rubbing me the wrong way, when I rub people the wrong way all of the time?
This(along with my yummy dinner thanks wheat belly) are really weighing heavily on me tonight. Yeah, I can’t really show people God’s love when I am being a total jerk. Even though I think that the world works better when I am nice to people who are nice to me, this sadly is not quite reality. Its just me enjoying my unicorn. So tonight I’m praying hard for my enemies and myself. I am no better than anyone else(no matter how special I think I am). So I am thankful for old and new friends who can tell me the truth about myself.
Shalom and blessings
This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. Amen. In case you were wondering, for this devotional, I have been summarizing my thoughts on the Jesus Calling devotional. I think I am getting used to it. It takes an idea and makes it simple. Basically more God less me.
We as believers strive to be content with our present circumstances. But some of us super special believers(me included) just aren’t quite happy until we have everything under control. Yes I said we. It is a total delusion, but we live and die by it daily. We think that God is in control of the big stuff and that he gives us control over everything else. Until we find out that’s not quite true. He wants control of it all. God promises to give us peace and contentment when we give everything over to Him. So why is it so hard(every other hour?). Obviously, I still haven’t figured it out, otherwise I would be a very wise and rich woman. You know what the Bible says about being wise in our own eyes(yep, not good).
The solution is more prayer time and more listening. Yes, you know meditation. Where I am quiet for a time and let God speak to me. My life has never gone wrong when I spent more time in prayer and meditation. The pastor challenged us at church to spend more time in prayer. I know that is never bad, but my reaction was “Um, hello I have been doing that forever”. Yeah I have stuff to work on. So my plan is to have my stopwatch on so I can actually see how long it takes me.
I hope you have a blessed day today 🙂
“I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.” Philippians 4:12(NIV)
As believers we have our up days and down days. In both of those moments, it is vital that we draw closer to God in order to grow in his love and grace. If you ever need a quick gut check, just stop pray and ask God what His will is for you. Its a humbling experience.
I got some news yesterday that I didn’t know how to process. So I told myself, it will be ok, it will work out. I felt good for awhile until I told someone else about the news. Boy did a rage and dread fill me. So it was only then that I managed to stop and cry out to God about my frustration and how I needed Him. Then I was able to do a massive clean up of my room. I still have some things to straighten up but it looks way better than it was.
The point is, sometimes its just about perspective. Even though something that I cannot control can try to knock me down, I have to know and trust that God is in control and He didn’t bring me this far to have me fall into a hole.
“And give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.” Ephesians 5:20(NLT)