Tag Archives: Love

Being In The Present

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     One of the things that we try to do is stay focused on the present moment. Not focusing on the past(because we can’t change it) and not focusing on the future(because it hasn’t happened yet). I’m in a weird conundrum where I attempt to be okay with the present but I am really future focused. Thankfully I have time to work on it. We all have the present to begin working on things.

      I worked on some grounding and breathing today. It really helped. I am going to have to do more of it. I do a lot of shallow breathing. Deep breathing feels better. Maybe shallow breathing is easier. I also decided to stay in my yoga poses longer(still working on it). I have had so much on my mind.

     I love how everyone is counting down the summer for me. I am enough of an overplanner to know about the number of weeks I have. I know that I should be happier about it but because I have so much on my mind, it still lingers in the back of my head. Probably due to my not being able to predict the future.

     SP is doing great. This week it will be one month since we have decided to give it another go. I miss him a lot. I was thinking about our first date(I think I mentioned this yesterday). So I am going to share some happy memories with him. I try to do my best not to embarrass him too bad but sometimes I just can’t help it.

     I am officially finishing up OITNB today(whoo). I hated the book but I love the show. It is a million times better than the book. I guess because I hated the book, I also hate Piper. I am not sharing any spoilers. I just really think the show is genius. In other news, I wish I could figure out how to unfollow people on Twitter in one fell swoop for free.

     Well, I have to get back to this finale lol

Shalom

Namaste

What A Week

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Last week was filled with a lot of changes. I had so many moments where I wanted to blog but I could only manage to email SP. He offered me a lot of support and encouragement. So I thought about blogging everyday but I was too exhausted.
My summer semester has officially begun. You would think I would be excited about ten weeks of fun but I am freaking out. I’m not sure why. Just general freaking out.
I moved in with my new roommate and it is quite the change in scene but it is so peaceful. She has two cats which are nice. There are a ton of cats in the neighborhood. Its like Cat Street lol. I also started internship everyday which is a tad exhausting.
I managed to start running again. I am really close to an awesome spot and it makes it such a joy to run. Then my favorite show came on Netflix so now I am slowly binging it and thinking about all of its meaning. I had some possible job leads that I followed up on. I hope to hear something soon.
This week will make it one month that SP has been gone. I don’t think I have missed him more than last week. It was pretty funny how to think of how to tell someone how much you miss them in a like way(since we are still in the like phase). I guess right now its like super like. Its like with emphasis. He is still doing well. I am happy for that.
Yesterday I went to a community conference where I had the opportunity to meet some members of city council. It was a really informative event. I guess it was open to the community but I thought it would have been cool if it had actually been tons of members of the community having a conversation about community needs.
I look forward to getting more sleep this week. I had to learn some hard lessons this past week which I hope to continue to learn from and apply in the new week.
Shalom
Namaste

Whoo

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     Today I woke up early to run errands. I had an appointment at school. I applied for a few jobs. I met up with a classmate. It was great until I had to spend an outrageous amount of money for a paperback textbook. Ouch. I may have let a few curse words fly at the register. 

     I made it to the post office when I realized I didn’t have a document I needed so I had to walk twenty-five minutes home in the heat. I survived. I got some sad news that one of the students I was scheduled to meet in the fall had been killed in a car accident. I am praying for her family and friends. 

     I met up with my new roommate. She is so cool and I got to meet one of her cats. So adorable and forgiving after I stepped on his paw(ouch and oops). I felt bad. He forgave me and that was sweet. This is all happening and I am very excited. I hope that I am able to get a job soon because that will help a lot with everything. 

    I heard from SP. Of course he is out saving the world and being awesome. I am so tired. I walked six miles today. So I am going to email SP and hit the hay. Here’s to getting sleep for tomorrow. 

Shalom

Namaste

Interesting Day

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     Today I woke up feeling terrible. Just tired and achy all over. So I did my best to rest. I woke up to the news of Maya Angelou’s passing and it was sad to hear. She has had such an influence on my life and countless others. She will not be forgotten. I managed to get some packing done. I have been procrastinating so I was happy to at least get started. There is light at the end of the tunnel. 

     I didn’t hear from SP today. I am sure he must be busy saving the world and everything. I love reading blogs(new ones, old ones, in between ones). I think it is so neat to hear about peoples’ adventures and lives. I also enjoy seeing what people pin. Pinterest is so much fun. At first I didn’t realize why people enjoyed it so much. Now, I can’t stay away from it. 

     I hope that tomorrow is a better day. I have a lot of errands to run. I chatted with an old party friend who was pretty clueless about what I have been up to. She couldn’t understand why I had made some of the choices I had made and she asked a lot of questions about SP. I told her that I was happy and that I was doing well. The reason why I don’t have tons of pics of SP everywhere is because we really haven’t taken a lot of pictures together. Plus I don’t think the world has stopped spinning because I don’t have pictures everywhere. Now maybe I will sing a different tune once we take more pics. 

Shalom

Namaste

Remembering Maya

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     I woke up this morning to sad news. Hearing that one of our greatest gifts had gone to heaven. Maya you will be forever missed. Thank you for your courage, faith, hope, and beauty. Thank you for teaching us all how to live boldly, love strongly, and share freely. Words do not express all that you have impressed upon our hearts. 

     I remember the first time I read “I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings”. I was in high school, still trying to find my way in the world. I mean some days I still am. Your amazing truth helped me to know that I would make it. I could also live freely. I no longer had to be a caged bird, I could fly. Your words gave me wings. 

     You taught me how to love every part of myself and to love every part of someone else. You taught me that my voice matters. You taught me how to be comfortable in my awkward uniqueness. You taught me what it means to walk in the light of love. These are just some of the things that you taught me. 

     You showed me how to care for the global community. You showed me how to navigate the rocky roads of life. You showed me how to live out my purpose and never let my light die out. You showed me the importance of helping others and how we grow together. You showed me resilience. You showed me true self confidence. You showed me how to be me. 

     Although I did not have the chance to meet you in this life, I know that your words and gifts surround me like a blanket of love and help to mold me into the person I am to become. The world is a better place because of the joy and wisdom that you gave to it. You will never be forgotten. You will be kept in our hearts and minds like a warm light guiding our way to our purpose. Thank you for your insight and laughter. 

Shalom

Namaste

Something New

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     Today I made Soba noodles for the first time ever. They were delicious. I made them with a green curry paste and an assortment of spices. The problem I have when I make something good. I don’t make enough of it. They were so good I am tempted to make them for breakfast. 

     I woke up not feeling very well(my voice was on the verge of leaving, I blame the ac). So I tried to take it easy. I participated in a podcast today  called Right To R.E.A.L. Love about cohabitation(the pros and cons). It was a lively discussion. I really enjoyed it. It should be available next month. 

     I missed the beginning of Extreme Weight Loss(which is one of my favorite shows). But I was able to catch a good portion of it. It was so inspirational and motivating. The contestant lost 150 pounds. She spoke about eating her pain(and I thought pain and shame). It made me think about what I am eating. I know that a lot of people eat out of comfort, I will have to do some research to find out why and tips to stop. So I pushed myself to do a workout before bed. 300 weighted squats, some other arm exercises with my 5lbers. I took the rest of my weights to storage. I hope to wake up early tomorrow and get in some movement before my day gets started. 

     I didn’t hear from SP,hopefully I hear from him tomorrow. I still haven’t quite figured out our time difference. I know that he is doing well. I am so proud of him(and everyone who has served/currently serving). So I am off to send an email ad hit the hay.

Shalom

Namaste

 

Wow!

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     Today was an interesting day. It rained last night and it rained for a huge part of the day. So I had to pick and choose my moving times. I did a good job until I got drenched(with an umbrella) on my third trip. I wasn’t upset about it, I just laughed. I used it as my cue to take a break and eat lunch. Later a friend helped me turn what would have taken hours into ten minutes. What a difference a car makes. I was so thankful. So with a few more trips, I should be all set. 

     I woke up to an email from SP that really put my mind at ease. I do this thing where I jump to conclusions and basically make up stuff that hasn’t happened and act as if they have happened. The awesome thing is, he is patient and he doesn’t get upset about it. It was a really nice exchange and it only made me even happier about where we are headed. I am so thankful and grateful that we were brought back together. Ok that is an understatement. I am beyond blessed to have him in my life. 

     I ate a lot of food today and the weird thing is my stomach acts like I haven’t eaten at all. I thought that huge bowl of oatmeal this morning would tide me over for awhile(nope wrong) but I will definitely have it again tomorrow. Yeah, sometimes when I make really good food, I think about the next time I will eat it. That may seem weird. I like food. 

     I am worn out(probably from all of the moving) so I am going to quickly email SP and then hit the hay. I hope you all had a wonderful day. Tomorrow night I am going to be participating in a podcast. This should be interesting. 

Shalom

Namaste