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Remembering Maya

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     I woke up this morning to sad news. Hearing that one of our greatest gifts had gone to heaven. Maya you will be forever missed. Thank you for your courage, faith, hope, and beauty. Thank you for teaching us all how to live boldly, love strongly, and share freely. Words do not express all that you have impressed upon our hearts. 

     I remember the first time I read “I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings”. I was in high school, still trying to find my way in the world. I mean some days I still am. Your amazing truth helped me to know that I would make it. I could also live freely. I no longer had to be a caged bird, I could fly. Your words gave me wings. 

     You taught me how to love every part of myself and to love every part of someone else. You taught me that my voice matters. You taught me how to be comfortable in my awkward uniqueness. You taught me what it means to walk in the light of love. These are just some of the things that you taught me. 

     You showed me how to care for the global community. You showed me how to navigate the rocky roads of life. You showed me how to live out my purpose and never let my light die out. You showed me the importance of helping others and how we grow together. You showed me resilience. You showed me true self confidence. You showed me how to be me. 

     Although I did not have the chance to meet you in this life, I know that your words and gifts surround me like a blanket of love and help to mold me into the person I am to become. The world is a better place because of the joy and wisdom that you gave to it. You will never be forgotten. You will be kept in our hearts and minds like a warm light guiding our way to our purpose. Thank you for your insight and laughter. 

Shalom

Namaste

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Something New

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     Today I made Soba noodles for the first time ever. They were delicious. I made them with a green curry paste and an assortment of spices. The problem I have when I make something good. I don’t make enough of it. They were so good I am tempted to make them for breakfast. 

     I woke up not feeling very well(my voice was on the verge of leaving, I blame the ac). So I tried to take it easy. I participated in a podcast today  called Right To R.E.A.L. Love about cohabitation(the pros and cons). It was a lively discussion. I really enjoyed it. It should be available next month. 

     I missed the beginning of Extreme Weight Loss(which is one of my favorite shows). But I was able to catch a good portion of it. It was so inspirational and motivating. The contestant lost 150 pounds. She spoke about eating her pain(and I thought pain and shame). It made me think about what I am eating. I know that a lot of people eat out of comfort, I will have to do some research to find out why and tips to stop. So I pushed myself to do a workout before bed. 300 weighted squats, some other arm exercises with my 5lbers. I took the rest of my weights to storage. I hope to wake up early tomorrow and get in some movement before my day gets started. 

     I didn’t hear from SP,hopefully I hear from him tomorrow. I still haven’t quite figured out our time difference. I know that he is doing well. I am so proud of him(and everyone who has served/currently serving). So I am off to send an email ad hit the hay.

Shalom

Namaste

 

Wow!

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     Today was an interesting day. It rained last night and it rained for a huge part of the day. So I had to pick and choose my moving times. I did a good job until I got drenched(with an umbrella) on my third trip. I wasn’t upset about it, I just laughed. I used it as my cue to take a break and eat lunch. Later a friend helped me turn what would have taken hours into ten minutes. What a difference a car makes. I was so thankful. So with a few more trips, I should be all set. 

     I woke up to an email from SP that really put my mind at ease. I do this thing where I jump to conclusions and basically make up stuff that hasn’t happened and act as if they have happened. The awesome thing is, he is patient and he doesn’t get upset about it. It was a really nice exchange and it only made me even happier about where we are headed. I am so thankful and grateful that we were brought back together. Ok that is an understatement. I am beyond blessed to have him in my life. 

     I ate a lot of food today and the weird thing is my stomach acts like I haven’t eaten at all. I thought that huge bowl of oatmeal this morning would tide me over for awhile(nope wrong) but I will definitely have it again tomorrow. Yeah, sometimes when I make really good food, I think about the next time I will eat it. That may seem weird. I like food. 

     I am worn out(probably from all of the moving) so I am going to quickly email SP and then hit the hay. I hope you all had a wonderful day. Tomorrow night I am going to be participating in a podcast. This should be interesting. 

Shalom

Namaste

     

A Blah Day

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     Today I managed to get a few more things moved(mostly books). I thought it would be a good idea to move the books before the clothes. I have high hopes for tomorrow. I am pretty sure I went on a sugar binge today. I just had a lot of junk. Not one of my best days. I am not sure what exactly is going on. I guess I just feel blah. 

     I heard about the shooting incident in California and I checked out the responses on Twitter and Facebook. I added my four cents to the conversation. Not too much, just a lot of experiences that I have had. Maybe I was feeling blah because of what happened and the responses that various people had to the situation. 

     So then I thought about SP and something was bugging me so I emailed him a bunch of stuff about communication and blah blah blah. Yes, I know that you are supposed to keep things positive and upbeat during a deployment but I mentioned my concerns and just basically said are we really communicating? Ok, that is a question. I also said if he wanted to keep it surface I would keep it surface. So I am just waiting to see his thoughts on it. 

     I got in five miles due to the moving and packing. Yes, I am counting it in my mind. So on that note, I am calling it a night. More packing and moving tomorrow. Hopefully I will get started earlier than today. 

Shalom

Namaste

Productive

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  • First reading
    • Acts 17:22-31
  • Psalm
    • Psalm 66:8-20
  • Second reading
    • 1 Peter 3:13-22
  • Gospel
    • John 14:15-21

     This weeks readings speak of Christ at God’s right hand and the gift we have been given in the Holy Spirit. The reading in John mentions the Holy Spirit and how the world isn’t looking for the Holy Spirit. I wonder if we sometimes take the Holy Spirit for granted. This makes me mindful of all of the great gifts that God gives and how I can’t take any of it as not a big deal. If it weren’t for the Holy Spirit getting me through so many situations in my life, I would not have the testimony that I cling to. 

    Today I felt really productive because I was able to get a lot of stuff moved before the rain moved in. On my last trip, the rain started to come down and I took that as my cue to pick it back up tomorrow. Some of the neighbors thought that I was moving today. I let them know that I was still getting stuff ready for the move. I also counted these trips as my workout for the day. 

     I also managed to do my nails and toes(I like to try and do them once a week unless I am feeling super lazy). I looked up some beauty youtube videos and found out that I don’t put on nearly enough mascara lol. I have enough of it, so I think I can put a few more coats on(to get my desired look). I am also proud of myself because I did not whine about anything today. 

    I went to breakfast with my world traveling friend and she gifted me with cool earrings from Columbia and sweet treats from Japan(they were to die for). We had a fun adventure around the city just laughing and catching up. I didn’t tell her but I think she is my spirit animal. If you think I am positive all the time, she is 10x more positive than I am. She is such a sweet spirit. 

     Today I just did my best to be grateful for the little things. I heated up some leftovers and added some cornbread(it was delicious). Maybe delicious is an understatement. Then I wondered if the food I make is good because I made it or because I was hungry. Well, either way, it was really good. 

      Other than that, I am taking it easy. I am going to write SP a few letters and send him an email. It is Memorial Day weekend so hug or high five a hero 🙂

Shalom

Namaste

Funky Friday

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“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” Phil 4:13

     Today was just a weird day. I really went through it today(internally). There is something about the N word that just boggles my mind. I am convinced it is the worst insult. Because so many different nationalities can just rattle it off like its okay. Due to the word not just being imprinted on our brain, I don’t give anyone a pass for using it. 

    So, I guess due to my feelings related to my day, I had french fries and ice cream(for lunch/dinner). I caught up with some friends. I worked out. Pretty much my usual Friday night. I watched some junk tv. I read a couple of magazines. Now I am just winding down listening to some of my favorite country songs. 

     I heard from SP this morning. I always get a big smile on the inside when I hear from him. I know it probably doesn’t make any sense why I would be happy about someone that I just reconnected with a week ago, but I am happy. He didn’t forget our initial time together and I think that is pretty nice of him. I’m just excited about wherever the road leads us. 

     In other news, exes and wannabe exes are coming out of the wood work. Not sure why, I haven’t really said anything outside of the blog. But I am quickly cutting them to the chase(by being as brief as possible). Like, the same way people don’t contact me because I am not on their mind, I have not been in contact with/deleted them because they aren’t on my mind. Its kind of funny that people would think I was holding out a torch for something that didn’t work. 

     I am excited about meeting up with a fun friend for breakfast tomorrow. I love breakfast and catching up with great friends is always nice. The funny thing is she invited me to a protest and this is how you know I’m getting old. I told her that I would love to go but I can’t risk getting arrested. She was like “We have the right to assemble” and I told her “Yes we do, but it doesn’t take much for brown people to get arrested”. 

    So tomorrow the plan is to continue moving stuff and getting bags somewhat assembled. Just one more thing to cross off of the list. I had an aha moment with my hair tonight. I looked up some hair videos(yeah I am one of those people) and what do you know. My hair is just a big sponge that loves moisture. So I treated it to a nice session of conditioner and oil(we shall see what happens tomorrow). The awesome thing about it was I didn’t shed as much and it really was a breeze to comb. The only weird thing is my hair is super soft(which I tend to totally ignore), so I have to work on treating it a little nicer lol. 

     Well I am off to write SP. I think he is doing this thing where he responds to one email thread. But I still send him a new email because that works better for my brain lol. One of my friends had asked me how things were going with him and all I could say was good. Because it truly is good. I mean I think it would be a huge mistake to have out of this world expectations thousands of miles away. So I am going with the flow. Also, the communication is flowing well so far. So, how can I be upset with that. I can’t. 

     Thank you so much for continuing to check out my ramblings(I know I make sense sometimes). It really means a lot. I still have no idea how the boyfriend post is so popular. But I won’t complain. I hope it does help people. Because Lord knows I have made so many mistakes as a single person. Like if dating was a set of dominoes, I just shook the whole set and then threw them against a wall and the dominoes just flew all over the place. That’s probably a good representation of my dating experiences.

     Now it just looks like a peaceful lake. Two people in a nice boat just taking a nice ride on the lake. For a person like me, that is awesome. Its amazing and grace filled. So I just take in every moment like a ray of sunshine and I let it soak in. It also helps me to see that I am enough in a relationship and that I can actually be in one. Because for so long I thought something was wrong with me. That there was no way that I could really have a relationship. Thankfully life is showing me much different. 

Shalom

Namaste

Count It All Joy

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“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds” James 1:2

     Today this verse was in my evening devotional. It is so true and beneficial. It sure is hard to see sometimes. This morning I had great ideas and plans for packing and putting things away. Well, my body had other plans. I just really could not get it together. So I took it easy and did a little bit at a time. I managed to do laundry and make my bed seem live-able. I was sure that I was going to take a nap and that didn’t happen. 

     I popped some cookies in the oven and that made the house smell great. Everyone was all smiles. Oh the fun of baking yummy treats. I miss that. When I was a kid, my Mom always baked cakes and cookies. Especially during the holidays. I can’t say I will ever be as good of a cook as her because she didn’t pass on her secrets to me. But I do my best. 

     I went for a nice run. The breeze made it all worth it. I talked to a few neighbors. Everyone seemed to be taking it easy. I didn’t hear from SP. I wasn’t upset. I know that he needs to get settled in. Also I just kept saying to myself that we were apart for two months without contact and I managed, so I can definitely handle a few days. 

     Well, I am off to send an email and try and get some sleep. I am tired also because I spent a huge chunk of time trying to get the blog organized and finally found the solution I needed(yay). So I hope it is even easier for people to navigate. 

Shalom

Namaste