“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds” James 1:2
Today this verse was in my evening devotional. It is so true and beneficial. It sure is hard to see sometimes. This morning I had great ideas and plans for packing and putting things away. Well, my body had other plans. I just really could not get it together. So I took it easy and did a little bit at a time. I managed to do laundry and make my bed seem live-able. I was sure that I was going to take a nap and that didn’t happen.
I popped some cookies in the oven and that made the house smell great. Everyone was all smiles. Oh the fun of baking yummy treats. I miss that. When I was a kid, my Mom always baked cakes and cookies. Especially during the holidays. I can’t say I will ever be as good of a cook as her because she didn’t pass on her secrets to me. But I do my best.
I went for a nice run. The breeze made it all worth it. I talked to a few neighbors. Everyone seemed to be taking it easy. I didn’t hear from SP. I wasn’t upset. I know that he needs to get settled in. Also I just kept saying to myself that we were apart for two months without contact and I managed, so I can definitely handle a few days.
Well, I am off to send an email and try and get some sleep. I am tired also because I spent a huge chunk of time trying to get the blog organized and finally found the solution I needed(yay). So I hope it is even easier for people to navigate.
This morning at the bagel shop, I ordered a pastry and a bagel. The cashier looked at me kind of funny and I mentioned that I wasn’t having a good day because my friend had passed. The cashier said my friend’s name. I was shocked. How did he know? He mentioned that we had a mutual friend in common. I was utterly surprised. Then I just started saying out loud that I wanted to have a good day. While I waited to get my order, an order was called out for someone named Pearl. I didn’t think anything of it, until another worker looked at me and said that I had been renamed Pearl.
Then on the way to my site, I almost got ran over by a lady in a BMW(We had the walk sign). The person I was running with said that she would have agreed to be a witness(because we had a walk sign). We said good bye and I went on about my morning. I ate the pastry and gave a friend the bagel. Then donuts and tacos arrived(I had one taco). I was proud of myself for resisting the donuts.
I talked to my Aunt later in the day and she told me today was my Grandma Pearl’s birthday and I told her the bagel shop story. The angels were definitely with me today. Today was my second day of having no makeup on hand, so I stopped by the mall for a little treat. Now, I should have some sort of makeup with me for most moments.
I went for a nice run today and started another squat challenge. I guess I really like small challenges. I went to a meeting which was interesting. I think I am getting back into the routine.
I don’t usually formally participate in Lent. But I decided that I wanted to do something this year. So I found some awesome resources. I prayed with my prayer beads, read a devotional, and read the scripture for the day. I am really excited about what I can learn during this time.
I look forward to having a better day tomorrow. I am so tired, so I am hitting the hay now.
“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind”-Luke 10:27
This morning I woke up thinking about families. I thought about what it would be like to have a family of my own. I thought about families spending time together. I thought about children. I thought about all of the children that I don’t yet have. Then I thought “Man, it sucks that I am not where I thought I would be in this life”. Then I had another thought and I remembered that I never thought about being this old because it never really registered for me.
Old people say that I am young and young people(who try and guess my age) say that I am old. I say that I am old. I feel old. I know that I don’t look it, but I know I’m not as young as my mind thinks it is(21 haha). I got busy doing other things and my thoughts drifted to other things.
I met up with some old friends and had great conversation. It is so nice to be around people who understand you(and don’t make you feel so weird). Everybody needs that in their lives. Knowing that people understand where you are coming from is a true comfort. Being able to share what God is trying to show you and how you are trying to live your life out in a positive way is awesome. Being able to share prayer requests and pray for people is also great. We all have things that we struggle with(big and small) and knowing that people are lifting me up in prayer(as I lift them up) is a great example of team work.
I was able to get a handle on some schoolwork and managed to get in a run. I have a tiring day ahead of me tomorrow(praying about it) and really I’m just ready for the weekend. So I am going to do my best to take it easy and let each day unfold as it may(when I break busy days down into moments that I can ease into, they seem to flow).
I don’t have anything controversial or super spiritual to say today(except I am totally getting a lesson on fear and wow, three mentions of it in one day is a lot). So, since I don’t write this blog for views(I am happy that you are viewing it and I hope it helps you), I just want to say that we can only be who we are and just try to be a better version every day that comes.
It is tempted to get so wrapped up in ourselves that we forget that God is guiding us. It is our choice whether we listen to the guidance or go our own way. I spent a lot of time today getting out of my own way. I had a few experiences that were out of my control(I prayed and called on God) and I just had to go with it.
I know that every moment is not of my choosing but God is with me and will guide me through it. Praying with and for friends really helps me to get a better perspective of my issues. We know that there are others who have it much worse, but when you take the time to be grateful for what you have and what you have been through, your outlook gets brighter. I know mine does.
In times of extreme hustle and bustle I find that yoga is just the thing to calm me down and help me breathe. Even just five minutes goes a long way in my life. I had this bright idea to keep my yoga mat unrolled so I could do a pose any time I stepped on it, until I stepped on it with my cowboy boots and I cleaned it and rolled it up. I can’t be that lazy, that I cannot take the time to unroll my yoga mat(oh you would be surprised). So I updated the idea to, have your yoga mat where you can see it.
Shalom and Blessings
Saying that I trust God and trusting God with my life are two different things. It is only when I go through difficulties does my trust in God deepen. When I have hit my wall and don’t think that I can go any farther, that is when I have to give all of my cares and concerns over to God and leave them with Him.
It is so easy for me to say and hard to do. Because I am so quick to pick something back up. It would probably be easier if the problem just disappeared but often times than not, another problem enters in its place. I know that God has a plan for me, I just wish He would run it by me once in awhile(instead of after the fact). The saying goes, if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plan. Well, I am sure that I keep God in stitches. I have tons of great ideas and then I pray about them as if God is just going to give me the ok to move forward.
I can’t be half time about God’s will. Especially when I pray “Thy will be done”. Its not Thy will be done only on the things that I like. Its Thy will be done period. I also have this habit of doing things and then kind of saying “Ok God, what do you think about that?”. So I have to keep it simple and just say Thy will be done and seek after His will. Since His ways are better than my ways and His thoughts are not my thoughts. So here’s to letting God work and less worry.
Shalom and Blessings
We are called to trust in God with our whole hearts, mind, body, and spirit. When things are going good it is easy to say that we trust God completely. When things start to take a turn for the unexpected, we say we trust God(not as loud). Forgetting that God is in control of our good, iffy, and trying times. God knows what we are going to go through before we do.
Today I can say that I trust God completely and I hope that I trust Him even more when things go in a different direction. This also means that I have to change the way that I look at situations(in parts/moments) in order to truly see how God is leading and guiding me. I also have to remember that God has a good plan for me. When things go in a different direction for me, that does not mean that God isn’t with me, it just means things are different and I have the opportunity for a new experience.
So here’s to trusting God more in the new year.
Shalom and Blessings
Psalm 63:2, 2Chron 25:1-2
This morning’s devotionals speak to getting refreshment in our spirit through God. In an instant, God grants us peace and a renewed spirit. When we recognize God being with us in all circumstances, we can view our lives with new eyes. Even when we think we are going through something that we just can’t bear, God will bear it for us if we ask.
In order to give God our best, we have to place him as the top priority in our lives. This can begin with prayer as soon as we awake and prayer before we go to sleep. I find that when I make God a priority, I pray more. I love that God always listens to prayer(no matter how offbeat it might be).
Here’s to making God a top priority in my life in this new year.
Shalom and Blessings
“When you affirm that you’re not ready, the universe will agree with you.”-Kris Carr
Ezek20:40, Psalm 31:19–20