Hello lovely blog readers, I apologize for my tardiness. I wanted to write this blog last week but the week took me for a ride and it did not get started. I saw a quiz on Scientific American that asked what kind of introvert are you. It broke down introversion into four areas. Well, I scored the highest in the area of thinking introversion. This was also after a weekend where only one person called me(my best friend threw it back on me and asked me how many people i had called over the weekend).
This morning I saw another quiz that talked about covert narcissism. Well, let’s just say I scored pretty high on that as well. I hate to think of myself as a narcissist. Because I usually equate narcissists with all that is evil in the world(aka new Kanye vs. old Kanye). The truth is probably that narcissists suffer from huge bouts of insecurity and low self esteem. So, they act out in bold outlandish ways to get attention. Also, when I think of a narcissist I am probably actually thinking of a sociopath, so that’s probably why I dislike them so much. No, I am definitely not a sociopath.
I guess in my dreams I wish I were an introvert but in reality I am just a sensitive extrovert who gets exhausted because I think that my extroversion is socially acceptable(which it actually isn’t), so I get stuck in this cycle of being on and off. For instance, on the weekends, I am actually okay with being alone. I would just like to have the opportunity to have people to do stuff with(if I wanted to). I like to have some options lol.
My best friend mentioned that she did not call anyone all weekend(I think that is so awesome). I cannot imagine what it would be like to have someone call me and not pick up the phone or not call them back until I wanted to haha. Also, I like to think that if I were more introverted, I could let me thoughts flow through my writing. I’m still working on that one.
So what have we learned today? One, I am still awkward. Two, I’m fun to be around. Three, I need some sleep lol. I also know that people can’t make you do anything, its more like influence 🙂