This is why I hate the internet. So a friend posted something regarding a light skinned person’s take on colorism. I made a comment that the only hate I had ever received about my color was from dark skinned people. This comment included arguments or rebuttals from others. I stated that I try to support everyone in the community even though the community has not supported me.
So the conversation continued and then I was told that I can’t say anything because I benefit from privilege every day. I could not see how I benefited from the privilege. I mentioned that I did not see or feel the privilege. I was then told that I have to just accept that dark skinned people will hate me just because.
I think that is so sad. Obviously I did not do a good job of defending myself or my opinion. I just feel like people are going to have their opinions no matter what. It also doesn’t make sense for me to put myself into a ball of depression because black people hate me. As far as I am concerned, they will just have to join the club. Last time I checked, people outside of the Black community just saw me as Black anyway. That is why I don’t feel like I have some magic halo around me.
Now I’m sad and I hate the Internet. I think that if people can’t take the time to know within five minutes of meeting me that I am not their enemy, then that is just sad and too bad. I am too old to try and prove my Blackness to anyone. I was again told that I am part of the problem and that I can’t see past my own nose. I am also too old to get into debates with people on the Internet. How do I stop?
I guess I just forget that everyone has their own opinion and that so many people think differently than I do. I also forget that whenever I do voice my opinion, there is no one to fight my battle or have my back. So I always wind up feeling put down or bullied. I deleted most of my comments. I have to remember that just because there is a comment box, does not mean that I have to leave a comment or that my comment is valued.
Oh well, on that note, I am headed to bed.