This was not my first rodeo with online dating. I have been online dating on and off since *drumroll* 2006. Yep, that is a long time. I have tried all of the sites, OkCupid, Plenty Of Fish, Match.com, Eharmony, Christian Mingle, Marry Well just to name a few. Yes, there seem to be a ton of people on online dating sites, but if you look long enough(or just for a few hours) you will find that most people just have old profiles. I am too impatient to leave a profile up unattended.
So in my mode of “I’ll show him”, I went back to OkCupid and who welcomed me back? His profile and all of the others who had not left and in fact wondered where I had went. They did not welcome me back to ask me out or to get to know me. They welcomed me back just to see my profile. I actually made a pretty nice profile(if I do say so myself). When I say they were still there, I mean the creeps were still there too being creepy. The nice guys were still there too being timid. The really hot guys were still there too ignoring me. One guy told me that he would not even consider asking me out because I am pro-choice(whew, I dodged a bullet).
So I decided that I would be done with online dating once and for all. I know that if God has it in His plan for me to meet someone, He will work out the details. Does this mean I’m not dating? No, this just means that I am not online dating. This leaves me time and energy to focus on things that I need to do in my life(like laundry, and finish school, and read). This also gives me time to draw closer to God(because life is never ruined when we run closer to faith).
As I reflected on my actions and reactions to what happened over the past few days, I realized that I was feeling sadder about this quasi relationship than the one I had with my ex(due to expectations and hope). Since I have an awesome extended crew around me, my down feelings did not get to last for long. I know that I have a lot of good qualities and the right guy will be blessed by them. Until then, I just have to be my own valentine 🙂